Why you are my love.

MrFlazer · 13-09-2009, 02:42 AM

When you told me you had a crush on me when we were close before. I wanted to tell you, i already knew. I didn't say i don't love you, but yet i didn't say why too. Back then, you had someone with you. I couldn't just tell you i love you, and break the two of you up. No, it will be very, very wrong. That was why, i had to back out. Back out, so that you'll stop loving me. So that you'll leave me out of your life.

Now, i'm wondering. If i didn't do what i did that time. Would we be much happier, together now? Would you be able to accept me into your life with greater ease? Ever since that day, when you stopped replying my messages, stop wanting to see me, stop opening up to me and stopped talking to me. My heart has been hurting. Day by day, the hurt becomes lesser. While the love increases. I have told you before, that my love for you, will grow each day when i'm with you. Indeed it did, to the extent that i don't have to be with you for it to grow. I want to see your smile when you hold my hand, like before. I want to be able to let you lean on my shoulder, like before. I want to be able to share your happiness, like before. I want to be able to give you a real hug, to lean towards your ears, and to whisper 'i love you' into it. So soft that you'll only feel it with your heart.

When you flash up on my phone, I feel that little hope. When you reply only one out of the plenty of the messages i have sent you, I feel that little contentment. When you call me 'baby', i feel that little happiness. All these, adds up to a little love. I know how you feel about us. I know why you are acting like you are now. I also know, that you love me.

I know you fear being hurt a second time. I know you are afraid of what's in the future that is in store for us. I know you do have that little willingness to face all these with me. Yet i also know, you are afraid, in the end, i will be the one inflicting the greatest pain on you.

Your fear of being hurt, shrouds like dark clouds over the love i have for you. I know that one day, my love will shine far greater than what the clouds can cover. One day, you'll be able to see the amount of love, that's been placed right in front of you all along.

I know i can't promise you forever. To you, promises are like lies. However, can you give me a first chance, to show the effort i've put in to turn the lie into reality. To bring you out of the shadows. To hear you say you love me, face to face, once again.

Lastly, I really just wanna say, I Love You.

The above, is something, i really want the person i love to see. We have been together for a short while, yet separated by her fear that we will have a bad ending in the end. After our major exams, the true outcome will surface. Hope you guys can wish me luck in this relationship. To pray that it will continue.

amktsy · 13-09-2009, 09:45 PM

wish you good luck in this relationship.

MrFlazer · 13-09-2009, 09:49 PM

thanks sy.

sorry haven't been back for quite long so haven't been to TCS.

amktsy · 13-09-2009, 10:29 PM

btw,this is your first relationship?

MrFlazer · 13-09-2009, 10:30 PM

Nah, third.

amktsy · 13-09-2009, 10:34 PM

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Originally Posted by MrFlazer

Nah, third.

when you had your first 1?

MrFlazer · 13-09-2009, 11:02 PM

think two years ago. haha.

kuehtutu · 13-09-2009, 11:07 PM

you did the right thing
dude, go for it and good luck!

**SuperFuryPearl** · 13-09-2009, 11:51 PM

Yeah man, i also support you. I also had the almost same incident like you. She told me she like me but she too like her bf. And told me that if i had knew her earlier than her bf the both of us could be together. But i admired her too for being so faithful. BTW all the best to you.